My
one year anniversary date for being in CoDA is approaching.
When I look back at where I was just 12 months ago and where I am today,
I cannot believe the growth and healing I have accomplished in such a short
period of time.
I can
remember when I first began going to CoDA, I would cry each time I shared.
I felt broken and tired. But
I diligently stuck with the program, going on a weekly basis.
I began to witness how the program worked in my life.
It was subtle, and yet powerful as clarity graced my daily life.
I could identify the maddening cycles that needed breaking; the toxic
relationships that needed letting go; the taming of craziness that surrounded me
in my neediness of others; and the ability to set healthy boundaries and
reinforce them without feeling guilty.
And
there were times during my recovery that I felt I no longer needed CoDA, that CoDA
was for those other people. But
when I set aside my judgment and began to focus on me, I was those other
people. I also realized those
other people would be key instruments in my healing process through their
sharing, support, loyalty and friendship.
I
have so much appreciation for what CoDA has done in my life.
I now have an active on going relationship with my Higher Power.
And when I put my Higher Power first in my life, everything else seems to
fall peacefully into place. I have
witnessed miracles upon miracles during my recovery process which validates my
purpose for being here on earth.
So in
closing, I would like to encourage all those who desire healthy relationships in
their lives, to give CoDA an honest try of at least 6 meetings before
determining to continue or not. Let
it work in your life and prove itself to you; you will be happier having done
so!
Marcia C.