Going Out

I’m walking my walk 

Supporting myself, finding answers at times,

In books and in prayers and friends in my  group.

The rain falling softly

As I’m walking along

When,

Suddenly water pours out of the sky 

Changing the road and my life,

But I continue my walk as I learned how to do but,

I test with my foot the earth turning to mush,

It feels cozy and warm

All soft and clingy it spreads  through my toes

And suddenly tired I want to stop

I feel like resting and dreaming a while

And I remember a long time ago

I used to slip and slide a lot

Before I could walk

Because

It felt good to play

But I slid down to far

Could not stop the slide

Did not know how to walk

But, I know how to slide now

I even can swim

I have learned all about

Sliding and walking and taking a spin

I even could sit in the mud for a while

Could cover myself

I think I’m playing with mud in my mind

For I know I can slide, I’ve done it before

So,  I gently step into the dirt

That is soft

That is warm

I stop and I play

And when I look up

Searching the road

I notice I have slid quite a bit

Still, I can see where I used to walk

And that makes it safe

For now that I know what a walk is about

I won’t have to practice

I know it by now

I am all finished doing that work

I now want to rest and be carried away

And slide

Just a little bit now and again

I  have studied for years

And now I know better then ever before

I’m so full of myself

I’m smelling the rain,

I’m dancing a dance as

I continue to slide

Closing my eyes letting go of myself

mud grabbing my heart

and now I’m forgetting

The stuff I did  know

mud is surrounding my

head and my toe

my eyes do not see

I’m fighting to breathe I’m reaching to find

A thing to hang on to

As I’m going blind

Mud reaches my mind.

All warm and mushy and sweetly perfumed

I am falling and sliding I can no longer stop

I forgot how to swim, I only can slide

Forgot how to stand. 

Forgot how to ask for someone to help

Forgot how to walk my  walk

I   stumble and fall

I am finally one with the dirt that I love

Iris R